Food for Yesterday & Today

Sat - 9/29/7
Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/ milk
Lunch - 1.5 cups of Spinach Noodles and 2 slices of Bacon Cheeseburger pizza
Dinner - Medium Potato Ole, Steak and Rice burrito, Taco Bravo, & some leftover Super Potato Oles, about 5 bites
Yellow Light Day

Sun - 9/30/07
Breakfast - 3 fried eggs, 2 Peanut Butter and Banana Pancakes w/ milk
Lunch - 1 biscuit, 5 pieces of chicken, & a large cajun rice from Popeye's
Dinner - 1 cup of saffron rice, w/ raw veggies (baby spinach, onions, bell pepper, tomatoes, jalapenos)
Dessert - 3 Vegan Choc Chip cookies and 3 scoops of ice cream
Yellow Light Day

Food

Breakfast - bowl of cereal w/milk & 3/4 PBJ
Lunch - 2 Boca Burger whole wheat tortilla wraps
Snack - pudding cup
Dinner - 1 & 1/2 bowls of while chili, 3 slices of bread
Dessert :-) 3 cookies from Wild Oats

Yellow Light Day

Food for Yesterday

Breakfast - Leftover General Chicken w/ rice
Lunch - Blueberry yogurt & apple nutra grain bar
Supper - Two open face boca burgers topped w/ chedder, tomato, onion, and baby spinach w/ a side of steamed carrots

Green Light Day!!!!!

Go Me!!!

Today I got out of math 20 minutes early. So instead of going to a computer and browsing the internet. I decided to take a power walk around campus. I could really get used to this new thinking.

Food

Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/milk and slice of PB Bread
Lunch - 2 Boca Burgers w/ cheese, baby spinach and hummus, and a can of corn
Dinner - 1/2 my general chicken, 2 egg rolls, 3 crab ran goon, and 3 chicken wings

Yellow Light Day

Food

Break fast :-0 Bowl of cereal w/ milk, & slice of bread w/ peanut butter
Lunch - 2 slices of pizza and 4.5 breadsticks
Snack - 2 little pastries type things (idk what they are called, about 2x2 inches each)
Dinner - 2 slice of pizza and a can of corn

Green Light Day

Food

Breakfast - 2 eggs w/ shredded cheese and 2 slices of whole wheat toast
Lunch - 6-inch Chicken Bacon Ranch, 4 oz yogurt, and some apple slices
Snack - PB&J Sandwich and Pudding Cup
Dinner - 5 pieces of chicken, 1 serving of mashed potatoes, 4 pickled jalapenos, 2 biscuits, and 1 serving of cherry cobbler

Red Light Day

Out to Lunch

Today I'm going out to lunch with my sister and brother-in-law. We're going to Subway. This is not a big deal, but what I want to do is. I have never just ordered a 6-inch sub in my life. Today I am committing myself to only 6-inches of sandwich. Posting my thoughts is making me accountable for my actions in a whole new way. I don't want to post my food later and feel failure. So, committing to something new on my blog keeps me on my toes. Slacking is my default, so I need to set boundaries that will let me grow into a less dysfunctional person.

Today I will be honest and fearless,
-Paul Jackson

Thinking Update

I can do anything! However, I forget that constantly. I know that being free from compulsive eating today lets me live my life. But, I'm still learning what living life means. I'm taking an intro to abstract math class right now. I have a take home test due at 1pm today. I have known about this test for five days, but I refused to look at it. I don't want to be baffled by the questions and feel stupid. So, I just live in fear of taking the test. When I finally sit down Sunday night and do the fucking thing, it only took me about 90 minutes. It was challenging, I enjoyed that. Why did I not do it sooner? Next time I will do it sooner. I will not let my fears get in the way of my re-covery. My life depends on me. After I finished that test I went downstairs and celebrated with another pudding cup for the day and a Fiber One Bar. Now this is far from a binge, but I must find ways of rewarding myself that do not involve food. Today I see progress not perfection, and that's all I can ask for.

Food for Yesterday

Breakfast - Leftover Pasta from Cheesecake Factory and my slice of Carrot Cake Cheesecake (what a way 2 start the day)
Lunch - 2 Tuna Salad Sandwiches topped with mojack, baby spinach and tomato on wheat kaiser buns
Snack - 1 pudding cup and shared nacho's with my wife @ the bowling
Dinner - 1.5 cups of Pasta Roni
Later on - 1 pudding cup and a Fiber One bar

A Year of Growing

Today has been a day of reflection for me. I can truly look back over the past year and see tremendous growth in every aspect of my life. Somehow the birth of Emenike bonded our family in a unimaginable way. As the only biological child of my wife and I, he seems to belong not only to us, but to his two adopted sisters. Emenike is the spiritual glue of my family. His presence has created a peace inside me that allows me to "take things easy," which is the definition of his name.

Taking things easy has allowed me to continue to move forward in my own spiritual, mental, and physical recovery from compulsive overeating. Starting to learn about letting go of things out of my control has made me more useful to all other people that I encounter. The Spirits guide in all aspects of my life when I make myself available to their knowledge. Today I'm thinking with my recovery voice, and that feels amazing.

Amazing also best describes the growth that is happened in my marriage over the past 12 months. Everyday Katie's and my relationship grows more nourishing. Through the function and the dysfunction this woman and I are committed to make one another and ourselves better people. The Spirits have placed me in an environment of love and recovery; I continue to be thankful and careful with this gift.

My Monkeys keep my on my toes. They provide me lessons on life, love, responsibility and trust daily. Genevieve, Tanea, & Emenike have changed me forever. They have taught me how to "soak up the sun." I am humbled to be their father.

Life is good, if you live it,
-Chinwendu

Food

Breakfast - 1 Granola Bar and 1 Nutra Grain Bar
Lunch - 1 Rice, 2 Baja Bean Chalupa, & 1 Cheesy Beefy Melt from Taco Bell
Alex's Celebration - 2 pieces of Ice Cream Cake
Dinner - 2/3 Nacho Appetizer, 1/4 Cajun Jambalaya Pasta from The Cheesecake Factory

Emenike's 1st Birthday

LOL! This little boy fell asleep during after devouring as much of his first birthday cake as he could. I love my little boy. I'm proud to be his Daddy.

Exercise It!

Today I walked 1.9 miles on the Keystone Trail with the family.

Exercise and Weight Report

As of 9.21.7 I currently weight 462 pounds, down from 472 last month.

9.22.7
Walk w/ Momz and Babies @ Keystone Trail 2.2 miles

9.21.7
20 minutes of Stairmaster & 10 minutes of B-ball @ 24 Fitness

Food for Yesterday & Today

Thursday - 9.21.7
Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/ milk
Lunch - Two Cheeseburgers w/ carrots and broccoli
Dinner - 3/4 Crispy Orange Chicken Bowl from Applebee's
Later on - Chicken Thigh Sandwich
Drinks - Can of Barq's & Vanilla Coke Zero, water the rest of the day
Yellow Light Day

Friday - 9.22.7
Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/ milk
Lunch - Saffron Rice w/ SautÉed Chicken and Veggies
Dinner - 4/5 El Kitchen Sinko Fernacho's
Drinks - Water all day
Green Light Day

Food

I'm actually posting my food the day I ate it. What took me so long?

Breakfast - Bowl of cereal w/ milk
Lunch - Two Cheeseburgers, raw carrots and brocolli w/ ranch dip
Snack - Nutra-grain bar
Dinner - Five slices of Pizza Hut pizza
Drinks - Can of Coke Zero, water the rest of the day

Yellow Light Day

Yesterday's Food

Breakfast - None
Lunch - A Cheeseburger, chicken thigh, 1.5 cups of potato salad, and 1 oatmeal raisin bar.
Snack - Turkey Cheese w/ cheese
Dinner - Saffron rice w/ sautéed chicken and vegetables
Later on - 3 oatmeal raisin bars

Yellow Light Day

Manic Monday

Monday was by far the worst day I've had with food since I have been in OA. I disregarded all my boundaries. I ignored all the rules that make me feel safe and confident in my recovery. On Monday I fell early in the day and didn't get up until the mid-evening. I spent about 12 hours of the day feeling sorry for myself, bitter because I don't have the control I once had now being a stay-at-home parent. I have to go to school and run my kids back and forth all over the place on Mondays and Wednesdays. I don't want to clean my house, I don't want all these tasks to be so fucking difficult, but life is for learning. So today accept my responsibilities and master them so that life will reward me with new challenges. When things are difficult, I can face them, or I can eat. On Manic Monday I ate, that is old thinking. Today I'm back on track continuing on the journey of updating my thinking.

Food from Monday

To start - 5 oatmeal raisin bars, 2 cups of grapes.
Lunch - Feta Cheeseburger, 3 boneless skinless chicken thighs, 2 cups of potato salad, 2 oatmeal raisin bars.
Later on - 5 oatmeal raisin bars w/ milk
Dinner - 3 hot dogs on two hot dog buns, 2 chicken thighs, 2 cups of potato salad, a handful of grapes, about 2 cups of raw broccoli and carrot w/ bleu cheese dip
An hour after supper - 2 oatmeal raisin bars

Food for Yesterday & Today

Sat (9-15-7)
Breakfast - Fiber One Bar and a bowl of cereal w/milk.
While I was @ work -2 Slices of pizza, 3 zzagos, 1/2 cup of diced ham
Dinner - Dozen Chicken Wings and 2 Slices of Pizza
Drinks - Water, 32 ounces of Diet Pepsi while I was at work

Yellow Light Day

Sun (9-16-7)
Breakfast - None
Lunch - 2 slices of pizza and a breadstick
Dinner- 5 boneless skinless chicken theighs, 1 cup of potato salad, 2 slices of cake, 1 feta cheeseburger, and some other stuff too. I can remember everything I ate. :-( I need to update my BBQ thinking.

Red Light Day

My 7 Deadly Sins Quiz

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Very Low
Sloth:	Very Low
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Low
Pride:	Very Low

I took this quiz today. Take it yourself if you'd like. http://www.4degreez.com/misc/seven_deadly_sins.html

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

Food Last 3 Days

I'm slipping, but I just got up.

Wed (9-12)
Breakfast - 2 slice of toast, topped with garlic hummus, cheddar, and 3 fried eggs
Lunch - Gyro and fries from King Kong
Dinner - 3 drumsticks, 2 thieghs, large cajun rice, 3 biscuits, 1/2 a popcorn shrimp craver and a few fries.
Later that night - Bowl of Cereal w/milk
Water all day

Thoughts on this day: I was feeling rather exicted on this day. I had homework for school completed and that is a change from my past. I celebrated with food, all day. This is not the idea of recovery that I have been looking for. I'm looking at this.

Red Light Day

Thur (9-13)
Breakfast - 2 slice of toast, topped with garlic hummus, cheddar, and 3 fried eggs
Lunch - 2 PB&J's and a glass of milk
Dinner - Philly Sandwich, 4 bitesize eggrolls, and 1/2 of a kidmeal sandwich from Arby's
Later that night - Bowl of Cereal w/milk
Drinks - Vanilla Coke Zero, water the rest of the day

Yellow Light Day

Fri (9-14)
Breakfast - None
Lunch - 2 Tuna Sandwiches w/ tomatoes, baby spinach, hummus, cheddar and bell pepper
Snack - Fiber One Bar and a pudding cup
Dinner - 2 chicken thieghs, serving of rice, and a serving of green beans
Drinks - 8oz of juice, water the rest of the day

Green Light Day

I'm trying,
-Chinwendu

Food

Breakfast - Bowl of Chinwendu's Special w/ milk
Lunch - Veggie Chili Nachos
Snack - 2 Granola Bars
Dinner - One Beef Soft Taco, One Steak Soft Taco, One Bean Burrito
Snack - 3 Reese's Peanut Butter Cups

Yellow Light Day

Food for Yesterday

Breakfast - Bowl of Chinwendu's Special w/milk
Lunch - Veggie Gyro, 2 Strips of Gyro Meat & 1/2 a Greek Potato
At School - Snickers bar
Dinner - Plate of Veggie Chili Nachos, topped with: french onion dip, saffron rice, & black olives

Green Light Day

Food

Breakfast - Bowl of Chinwendu's Special w/ milk
Lunch - 5 veggie chick'n nuggets, 3 Dino nuggets, and saffron rice w/ tomatoes and red peppers
At the bowling alley - 8 breaded mushrooms w/ nacho cheese sauce
Supper - Two Boca Burgers w/ MoJack, sautaeed mushrooms, onions and bell pepper - I also had about 10-12 grapes
Drinks - 8oz of juice, water the rest of the day.

Listening to My Body

Recently some major changes have been happening with me and food. My body has been telling me to stop eating half way through meals! My body doesn't care that I don't get to finish everything on my plate. My gut has officially sent out a memo to my brain, effective immediately: 1. start ordering less food when I go out and 2. start loading less food on to my plate when I am at home. I must admit that even though this is the miracle I've been asking for, I have not fully wanted to comply. From now on, I will comply. I'm frustrated by all my new responsibilities of being a stay-at-home dad and returning to school. So getting to eat, even when I'm not doing it compulsively, has been a huge comfort to me. However, my body is telling me to turn down the food and I will do that. The Spirits of Love that surround me having never let me down. This is a message from them. I must be willing to let go of something, in order to get something new in return. Today, like most days my life, my struggles revolve around my acceptance of the things around me and my ability to make positive change where I can.

Thank You Spirits,
Chinwendu

"Our whole spiritual transformation brings us to the point where we realize that in our own being, we are enough."

-Ram Dass

Asleep at the Wheel

My food reports need to be made daily unless doing so is unreasonable. My lack of recent food reports has strictly been a result of my laziness. If I am to truly commit to this, I must remember that this blog for me is a daily reminder that I am a compulsive eater, I am in a program of recovery, and I am trying to update my thinking.

Food, Friday, September 7, 2007
Breakfast - Vegan Chocolate Chip Cookie from Wild Oats
Lunch - Two Boca Burgers with MoJack, Alfalfa Sprouts, Onion, Red Pepper, Jalapenos and Tomatoes
Dinner - Spaghetti and Meatballs Dinner in from Greco's.
Drinks - Lots of H2O today
Green Light Day

Food, Saturday, September 8, 200!
Before Walk - Yogurt, Banana and Granola Bar
After Walk - Granola Bar
Lunch - 1/2 Veggie Gyro Platter for Jim & Jennies (My Breezy YO! finished the fries!)
Dinner - 2 Bean Enchiladas, Serving of Rice with Red Peppers, Tomatoes, and Onions
Green Light Day

Food for Yesterday & Today

Wed
Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/ milk
Lunch - A slice of pizza and 4 zzagos
Dinner - gyro and fries

Thurs
Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/milk and 3 Chips Ahoy cookies
Lunch - 2 Bean Burritos with chips and bean dip
Dinner- 3.5 Fish Planks, 4 hush puppies, small side of cole slaw, and a "man-size" bite of fries from LJS

Water all day both days

Food

Breakfast - None

Lunch - 1 Bean Enchilada, a cup of saffron rice, and two scrambled eggs

Snack - 2 pudding cups

Dinner - 2 Tacos & Dinner size plate of nachos

Drinks - 4oz of juice, I drank water the rest of the day

Today was vegetarian, yellow light day

Until tomorrow,
-Chinwendu

Exercise It!

Sunday and today, the fam and I went to the trail and got our walk on. 2.3 miles for me each day.

I'm tired & going to bed,
-Chinwendu

Food for Yesterday &Today

Yesterday

Breakfast - Skillet at Village Inn with multi-grain pancakes
Lunch - Chips and Hummus
At the bowling alley - King Size Snickers
Dinner - Supersonic cheeseburger, large tots, and vanilla coke

Today

Breakfast - Bowl of Shredded Wheat w/ milk and 3 Chips Ahoy cookies
Lunch - 3 slice of BCB pizza and 10 chicken wing drumettes
Dinner - 2 bowls of Mushroom Alfredo Pasta topped with fresh tomatoes
Later - Med Blizzard for DQ, but I couldn't finish it. I only ate half.

I need to review these 2 days later.

Peace and Love,
-Chinwendu

Food

Before Walk - granola bar and half a banana

Breakfast - mini pizza(hamburger, pepperoni, black olives, and bacon) and a chocolate chunk cookie (at work)

Lunch - 2 Slices of Hamburger Pizza and a Individual Salad (at work)

Dinner - 2 Slices of BCB Pizza, 5 Chicken Wing Pieces, and 1/2 a bread stick

Yellow Light Day!

Saturday Stroll on the Trail

Today I walked 2.5 miles on the Field Club Trail with My Breezy Yo!, the kidz, and Momz YO!. It was great. I have not exercised since my last Exercise Report on Sunday. That is not the "new normal" for me. I have committed to exercising tomorrow. Right now, I will commit to exercising at least twice during this upcoming week. I need to make sure I get my exercise because for me it is like swimming in a fountain of life.

Peace & Love,
-Chinwendu

Food for Yesterday

Breakfast - Bowl of Life Cereal w/ milk

Lunch - Original Submarino, 2 bread sticks, and 2 bites Fettuccine Alfredo.

Dinner - Beef California Taco, 1/2 order of veggie nacho's, 16oz Orange Soda from California Taco's & More.

Late Night Movie Watching - Half a bag a popcorn.