Merry Christmas

b - none
l - a bowl of pasta with meatballs
snack - 7 or 8 choc. chip cookies
d - 3 servings of ham, some fruit, 1 serving of cheesy potatoes

red light day

e - none

Daily Report

b- 2 croissant, cheese, and fruit
l-split 2 entrees with KT at Applebee's
d-1 croissant turkey sandwich and a brownie

green light day

e - 30 minutes of Stairmaster @ 24HF

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal
while at work today - 4 breadsticks, a brownie, & a slice of pizza
d - 1 bowl of soup, 1 slice of homemade wheat bread
green light day

Today I'm grateful I brushed my teeth twice today....minty fresh aaahhhhhh!

E - 30 stairmaster and resistance training

Daily Report for Yesterday

b - 2 biscuit sandwiches
l - #9 from Jimmy John's and some BBQ chips
d - Super Nacho and 2 tacos from Taco John's

red light day (not because of quantity as much, everything was fast food)

e - 30 minutes StairMaster, 20 shooting hoops @ 24HF.

Weight Report

445 @ 24hf 2 days ago, down 5 from last month.

Let's get it.

The smell of vomit is so gross.....

I know the smell of vomit is so gross because I held my sick little girl a lot today. I hope she is better tomorrow, sick children can really take it out of me. Then, I want take-out. LOL.

I need to work on my paper for philosphy tomorrow, even if Geni is still sick. Life cannot be my excuses for complacency. Somebody let the world know I'm coming. . . . .

Daily Report

b - cereal w/ milk
l - 2 slices of pizza and spinach dip and crackers
d - 3 drumstix, 2 thighs, 2 biscuit, some fries and mashed potatoes

yellow light day

e - none.

No, No, No

Today I woke up hungry. I know that what I'm feeling is physical hunger, however, I cannot go eat. If I start eating at 5:30am the choices that I'll make will not be good ones. I decided to come and post something to my blog instead. Lately, my food has been tough for me. I keep rationalizing eating more food, and I haven't been dealing with those feelings lately. School for the most part is over for the semester, just one more paper to write and no finals left. I feel like binging almost everyday lately. I not sure what's is at the root of it, but I ask The Spirits to guide me away from food. I want to recover. These past couple of weeks have been difficult, but I made it through. "I" means that I have been using others to get me through. I cannot do this alone. I learned that in OA, even though I feel like I'm slipping away from many of the people there. I feel like my fellow members of OA helped me open a door to the discovery of my compulsive overeating. I thought when I walked through that door I would be going on an adventure of self-recovery with people that wanted to get better like me. That doesn't feel like the case a year and a half later. I feel like it's time for me to branch out into the world. Also, I feel like a need to stop labeling myself "recovering from compulsive overeating" because I want everyone to know how hard I'm trying to become a different person. I need to just live with all the new knowledge The Spirits have given me and just let myself grow, without any restrictions. I know that I am a person that wants to be good, and I want to make the world around me better. I just need to work on that.

Daily Report for Yesterday

b - 2 slices cinnamon raisin bread
l - chicken leg and thigh, a serving of potato salad, 2 piece of bread
snack - 1 slice of cinnamon raisn bread
d - 4 slices of pizza, 2 breadstix

yellow light day

Post Something

So I did. Fuck, life is crazy. I can't blame my life for letting go of the things that help.

Daily Report

b - 2 slices & 2 breadstix
l - side salad, 3 pieces of cheesebread, 3 slices of pizza, 2 glasses of soda
d - 10 chicken nuggets and a bowl of mac-n-cheese
later on - sonic blast

Yellow Light Day

e - none

Daily Report

b-two cookies
l-plate of nachos
d- 1 & 1/2 bowls of rice and stirfried vegatables
dessert- 4 cookies and 2 scoops of ice cream

yellow light day

e - 45 minutes on treadmill at 24HF

Daily Report

b-2 pieces of chicken and half a taco
l-turkey footlong from subway
d-plate of nachos
later on - 9 chocolate chip cookies

red light day

e - none

Daily Report for Yesterday

b-3 eggs w/ toast and salsa
l-2 squares of lasagna
d-7 tacos, 1 piece of cake and 2 scoops of vanilla ice cream

red light day

e-30 stairmaster, 20 shooting hoops

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal
l - 4 drumstick, large cajun rice, some fries, some shrimp cravers, and a biscuit from Popeye's
d - 3 pieces of lasagna, 2 pieces of carrot cake and 3 scoops of ice cream

Red Light Day

e - none

U can't tell me nothing

1. Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with?
No.

2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons?
I'd sell them on ebay...ppl will buy anything
3. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
michael jackson and ice cube
4. What is the best thing about your job?
i get to drive around and listen to my loud ass music

5. Do you wish cell phone etiquette was required in class?
no

8. Where are you going on your next vacation?
canada

9. Quote a song lyric?
"The absence of God will bring you comfort, baby
And planning's for the poor so let's pretend that we're rich"

10. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
both

11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
no

13. If you could be an animal what would you be?
elephant

14. What state/country are you from?
nebraska

15. Tell us about the last conversation/s you had.
how bout i don't

16. Where do you see yourself in one month?
on vacation mofos

17. What is your favorite smell?
DKNY Be Delicious

18. What is your favorite sight?
the sun

19. Do you consider yourself bi-polar?
neg

21. Have you ever done anything vindictive to your coworkers?
jeah

22. Have you ever gone to therapy?
jeah...i was an angry teenager

23. Have you ever played Spin the bottle?
yes

24. Have you ever toilet-papered someone's house?
no

25. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
yes,...

26. Have you ever gone camping?
jeah

27. Have you ever had a crush on your sister's friend?
jeah...

28. Have you ever been to a nude beach?
no

29. Have you ever drank?
jeah

30. Have you ever had a stalker?
just the police...but i'm black and i live in omaha

32. have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
all the time

33. Have you ever been cheated on?
i hope not...that would really fuck up this whole marriage thing

34. Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend?
jeah

35. Have you ever lied to your parents?
...duhhh

36. Have you ever been out of the US?
i got married in canada...bitches

37. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
no

38. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for a month straight?
no

39. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in 1 day?
oh yea...yikes

40. Have you ever spied on someone you had a crush on?
idk

41. Kissed more than one person at a time?
no