OH SNAP!

Please, be kind - don't drop the rock on me!

I've ready to challenge myself tomorrow and set myself up for success.

Today's Word

I trust in God like the sun in the sweltering summer Nebraska heat.  Life is that sweltering relentless unmanageable heat.  My HP is the air conditioning, a cold glass of water, or a breezy spot under a shaded tree whenever I need it.  This reminds me of what I prefer - which is to walk with God.  Today I understand that my HP doesn't  have to measure up to that of others.  My HP can be called God, The Spirits, Allah, Malcolm, Jesus, or Immanuel.  They all speak to me through the through my individualized interaction in the world.  It is easy to find HP in a quiet morning meditation, but sometimes more greatly appreciated in the confines of a crazy day.  Just for today, I will trust god to open the doors to my success.  I do not and will not back door my way into situations.  A desire to grow and willingness to do work today seems more important than winning cheaply and getting something for less work than most.  I have no greater value than anyone else in the world today.  My perception often leads me to think otherwise like "ya'll stuck without me."  Today I ask, Will you show me how can I benefit my family and my fellows in a useful way?

I have usually wanted to be profound.  Today I just want to be.  When I started this blog, I wanted to be a superstar.  Leading the charge of profound recovery from morbid obesity.  However, what I have found is that I'm a much more normal than that.  Before these last five months I've always believed that somehow I'm more valuable than you because I'm truly a gift to this world.  I've since learned otherwise.  I want to contribute today the most effective way that I can.  Gratitude lists and asking for good orderly direction is how I function today.  I do not do it perfectly, nor do I try.  Letting down people is something that I have really had to face and accept.  In the past, it has been impossible for me to take 100% responsibility for my actions with 0 zero excuses.  Skirting why I didn't perform has always been tops on my explanation list.  For today, I have acceptance of myself and my fellows.  Life is for living and today I want to perform because I have the ability to.  Assigning blame to myself and others doesn't help me recover, enjoy life, fulfill potential, and enhance situations positively.  So today, I am whatever I am.  I accept that first.  Next, I act.  My momma always told me, "Faith without action is dead." Today, I carry that statement with me in all my affairs.  I'm committing to returning to this blog frequently to document my fears, my accomplishments, and my recovery.  I hope that I can be of service to any who understands or doesn't understand my story.

30 workout in 30 days and over new commitments of quality.

I'm going to do 30 workouts in 30 days.  I know that doesn't seem extreme, and it's not.  It's just a plan of working out each day I wake up for the next 30 days.  On the thirtieth day I'm going to be speaking at an event and I'm excited to report my progress.

Just for today - I'm here.

OK.  I've been working the program of life on my higher power's terms, one day at a time consistently since October 2012.  I now believe anything is possible.  Letting go of my desires and asking my Higher Power what is best for me is the only way to live with spiritually clarity today.  I can "let solutions come," and be patience.  Understanding the spirits work in their own time - sometimes it's 5 seconds or maybe 5 years.  My job today is to take care of my responsibilities.