What is a Green Light Day?

I guess I'll find out today. YES!

Weight Report

On April 15 my weight was 445.

Missing Reports

I'm still journaling my food. I just haven't posted in the past couple of days, but here it is.

Tues - 4/22
b-bowl of cereal w/ milk
l-4 slices of thin crust pizza, individual lasagna, and 2 giant cinnamon breadsticks
d-2 slices of pizza and a can of corn
later on - bowl of cereal w/ milk
red light day
e-walked home from school

Monday - 4/21
b-bowl of cereal w/milk
l-2 tuna sandwiches and fritos
snack - granola bar and pudding cup
d - 2 bowls of chicken fried rice
later on - granola bar and pudding cup
yellow light day
e-40 minutes of Stairmaster (30,10), 25 minutes of elliptical (10,15), 35 minutes of shooting hoops (10,25) {I west to the gym twice today}

Sunday - 4/20
b- bowl of cereal w/ milk
l-2 chicken sandwiches and some fritos
d-2 plates of food at Valentino's buffet
yellow light day
e-30 minutes of SM and 10 minutes of elliptical and 15 minutes of shooting hoops

Saturday - 4/19
b- bowl of cereal w/ milk
l - 2 boca burgers and some waffle fries
snack - 1 rice krispie treat regular size
d - 2 burritos, 1 chalupa, 1 and 3/4 meximelts, and a sonic blast
red light day
e - 30 minutes of ST, 10 minutes of ELP, 10 minutes of hoops

Friday - 4/18
b-bowl of cereal
l - 2 chicken sandwiches
d - 1 and 1/2 plates of Veggie Chili Nachos
yellow light day
e - 30 minutes of ST, 10 minutes of ELP, 10 minutes of hoops

Thursday - 4/17
b - Chicken Fried Rice and 2 eggrolls
at work - toppings off 2 slices of pizza
l - 2 slices of pizza, lasagna, and some spinach noodles
snack - KS Snickers
d - four slices of pizza
later on - PB&J
red light day
e-none

Daily Report for Yesterday

b - bowl of cereal
l - two tuna sandwich, about 15 frito scoops, and 1 1/2 cups of soup
d - 7 chicken wings, 1 1/2 breadstix, 5 slices of pizza

yellow light day

e - 30 minutes of stairmaster, 10 minutes of elliptical, 10 minutes of shooting hoops

Daily Report

b - none
at work - a big cookie
l - 2 slices of pizza, a giant breadstick, and a cup of soda
d - 2 biscuits, 6 drumsticks and 1 thigh from popeye's

yellow light day

e - none

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal
l - 2 cups of bean dip w/ fritos, 7 oreo and 1 cup of milk
d - gyro w/ fries, mcdonald's double cheeseburger

yellow light day

e - 30 minutes stairmaster, 15 minutes elliptical, 20 shooting hoops

Daily Report

brunch - 3 and 1/2 pancakes, 5 strips, & 3 eggs w/ 2 glasses of milk
n btwn - 1 cookies and 5 macadamia nuts
dinner - 1 and 1/2 nacho plates, 2 brownies

yellow light day

e - 30 minutes of StairMaster, 10 minutes of elliptical, 15 minutes of resistance training

Setting myself up....

My wife and I invited my mom to dinner. She asked if she could bring anything and I asked her to bring brownies. That is my biggest trigger food, her brownies. I set myself up to fail and it worked. Am I really tired of this pain of compulsive eating? Today I'm not sure. This is something else I need to let go of so that I can grow. Self-destruction is nasty and I say I don't want to be a part of it, but I did tonight was detrimental to me. It's time for me to set myself up for success.

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal w/ milk
l - 3 slices of pizza and a bowl of vegetable egg noodle soup
d - 2 tostadas and 2 tacos
dessert - 8 brownies (I totally destroyed my green light day!)

red light day!

e - 30 StairMaster, 5 minutes treadmill, 10 minutes of hoops

Daily Report for Yesterday

b - bowl of cereal w/ milk
l - 1/2 crispy orange chicken bowl, 2 pieces of rotisserie chicken, and carrots sticker w/ bleu cheese
later on - 2 peanut butter cookies
d - 3 slices of cheeseburger pizza
later on - 2 peanut butter cookies

green light day

e - 30 minutes of stairmaster and 25 leg resistance training

Daily Report

b - 2 pb&j's and a glass of milk
l - 2 slices of pizza, 1 breadstick, and 1 cup of spaghetti w/ meatsauce
d - 1/2 Crispy Orange Chicken Bowl & 1/2 Boneless Buffalo Wing Appetizer from Applebee's
at the movies - 2 cookies, 1/2 a medium pop corn, & king size m&m's

red light day

e - none

Humility

I have not been humbled by my compulsive overeating lately and cunning, baffling and power food has slipped right back into my life in a dangerous way. Today I accept who I am and what I do. Today I will work towards my goals and not live inside my fear.

Daily Report

b - pb&j and a glass of milk
l - 3 frozen fish fillets, 1 wheat bun, and steamed carrots, & 7 oreo cookies
n btwn - large chili cheese tot from sonic and large vanilla coke
d - 5 slices of pizza

red light day

e - 30 min of Stairmaster, 10 min of elliptical, and some hoops

Daily Report

b - bowl of oatmeal
l - 2 slices of pizza, salad and breadstick
d - 2 sloppy joe's and potato salad

green light day

e - none

Crazy

I told my wife yesterday, "my food has been crazy." Her response, "When was the last time you posted your food?" She stopped me dead in my tracks. No matter how much I hate to admit it, I am a compulsive overeater. Today, in order for me to recover, I need to be posting my food. I don't like to do it because I find it a bother, but making myself review my intake at the end of each is good for me. Writing it out doesn't let me rationalize what I did. I'm honest with my posting and if I don't like what I'm seeing then I need to change how I act. I'm so tired of repeating this process and I'm starting to get angry at myself for not sticking with this posting. I must let go of the angry and focus on the solution, today I will try to do that

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal w/ milk
l - two boca burgers and steamed carrots, afterwards a bowl of ice cream (1.5 cups) and 4 oreo's
d - 2 big tuna sandwiches and fritos (25-30 chips)

yellow light day

e - 30 minutes of stairmaster, 10 minutes of the elliptical, 15 minutes of shooting hoops

On a Tuesday, April Fool's Day, don't get caught slippin

"On a Tuesday, April Fool's Day, don't get caught slippin..." -Outkast - Decatur Psalm

Wow. I'm glad to post. I'm trying to learn new ways to live, and let go of some of my old habits. It is turning out to be the most frustrating thing I've ever done. I feel my resistance and I'm working on letting it go. The next level of life is waiting for me, and I'm trying to find the staircase.

Today I went to the gym for the second consecutive day, that has not happened in over a month! I feel good. I feel ready for whatever is next.