Food

Breakfast - 1 Nutra Grain Bar and 1 Granola Bar.

Lunch - 2 slices of pizza and 3 breadsticks.

Snack - Some grapes, about 10 cheese cubes, 12 corn tortilla chips, and garlic hummus.

Dinner - 2 Enchiladas, a serving of saffron rice, all topped with fresh tomatoes, bell pepper, and onion.

Drinks - 8 ounces of juice, I drank water the rest of the day.

Today was a Yellow Light Day.

Ta-Ta 4 Now,
-P_Jax_YO!

Food

Breakfast - Bowl of Life Cereal w/milk

Lunch - 2 legs, 2 thighs, 2 biscuits, a side of coleslaw, and potato wedges.

Dinner - 2 slices of pepperoni's lovers pizza, 1 slice of vegetarian pizza, 3 breadstix (and a bite off another one), 5 chicken wing pieces, and 2 pieces of crust.

Drinks - I drank water all day.

Today was a bad food day, RED LIGHT! RED LIGHT! My lunch was excessive. However, it was cheap, so I led myself down a foolish path of excess. Dinner was a horrible mindfuck. I knew from the jump I should have set limits, but I did not. I let 2 out of 3 meals today crush my spirits, now I feel like shit. My body feels like 1000 pounds heavier. However, that is not the truth. I will succeed as long as I keep LEARNING. Today's failure has eched inside me these commandments:

1. Thou shalt listen to thy inner voice of recovery.
2. Thou shalt not kill oneself with food.
3. Thou shalt love oneself, unconditinally, and without reservation.
4. Thou shalt admit to being a compulsive overeater daily.
5. Honor those around you by sharing your love, dreams, experiences, strengths, and hopes.
6. Thou shalt release old ideas and update their thinking.

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-Paul Jackson

Food

Breakfast - 2 cups of Chinwendu's Special w/ milk.

Lunch - 2 Tuna Sandwiches on Onion Kaiser Buns w/ tomato, baby spinach, onion & bell pepper.

Dinner - 2 Boca Burgers on Onion Kaiser Buns w/ tomato, baby spinach, & cheese, about 20 Corn Chips with Garlic Hummus Dip.

Drinks - 8 ounces of juice, the rest of the day I had water.

Yesterday: My First Day of School

I returned to the University of NE-Omaha yesterday. It was my first day back after a 5 year hiatus. Finding a parking spot was really easy which just gave me more time to worry about other things, like the tremendous self-doubt I was letting run a muck in my head. I realized that being in my head when I was at school was one of my biggest problems. I need my focus on school when I'm at school, duh! So, in that moment, I released my past academic failures and remembered today I'm working on building new roads of success.

I'm taking 3 courses this semester. I liked the my first day in each class. I, for the first time, do not have anything to gripe about after day one. I like being back at school. I feel at home there. I can tell that's where I'm supposed to be.

To time to go study,
-Chinwendu

Food

Breakfast - None

Lunch - A plate of Nachos at my mama's house and I didn't even finish them and they were the bomb. (Now that's recovery....WOOT!)

Dinner - A Baby Spinach and Tomato Salad with croutons and zesty italian dressing, and a bowl of White Sauce Pasta.

Drinks - 8ounces of juice, water the rest of the day

Food

Breakfast - 1 Nutra Grain Bar and 1 Banana

Lunch - 2 Grilled Cheese and Tomato Sandwiches on whole wheat bread and 1 can of green beens

Snack - Granola Bar

Dinner - Order of rice, bean Baja Chalupa, & a Bean Burrito from Taco Bell.

Drinks - I had a 8oz glass of juice, the rest of the day I had water.

Green Light Day,
-Chinwendu

Walk with Wifey, Gramz, & the Little Monsters

We went for a walk today. I walked 2.4 miles while pushing the double wide stroller in about 40 minutes. This is a vast improvement for me. A couple of years ago this same walk took me over an hour. My momma came with us and that was awesome. I hope for more mornings like this.

PIC: Me and my baby Genevieve. Don't we look so much alike.

Picture me strollin',
-Chinwendu

Food: Saturday, August 25, 2007

Breakfast - I had a bowl (2 cups) of Crunchy Corn Bran/Quaker Oat Squares (I call it Chinwendu's Special) w/ milk.

Lunch - I had 2 Grilled Cheese and Tomato Sandwiches on whole wheat bread. I also ate the crust off of my daughter's grilled cheese sandwich.

Later on in the day - I had a handful of peanut M&M's and half of a king size Snicker's Bar.

Dinner - I had beef fried rice at my sister's house, about 3-4 cups. I also had 3 pieces of some crusty ass french bread she made.

Drinks - I had an 8 ounce glass of juice, other than that I had water all day.

Today was a Green Light Day for me. That means for me this was a good day. Food wise, I would be comfortable if everyday was like this.

This may seem really weird but I'm gonna do it.

Honesty has been my biggest asset in my journey with food addiction. Without honesty nothing else would have come to pass for me. Lying about food, covering up when and where I ate used to be one of the biggest secrets in my life. Silly me did not realize I was literally wearing the secrets of hidden binges and non-stop grazing on my body. So, in order to remain wickedly in check about my food, I will report it daily on my blog. This may seem really weird but I'm gonna do it because I need to be able to see it and share with whoever else wants to see it. Also, this helps me make better decisions about food. I promise to share openly about it because it helps me stay focused on life and not on food.

Holla at ya boy P_Jax_YO!

My Opening Statement

My name is Chinwendu, and I am a compulsive overeater. On March 10, 2006 I realized that I had a problem with food. So that day, I joined Overeaters Anonymous(OA). When I entered the doors of OA, I weighed in excess of 550 pounds. Of course, I knew I was morbidly obese, but I did not realize just how lethargic I was. I knew that physically I was not like other people, but I did not understand the profound effect my eating had on my thinking. My food addiction kept me numb, and left me disconnected from the life I was trying to attain for myself. I suffered daily from extreme chest pain. I would be winded just going up one flight of steps. Now, one day at a time, I'm attempting to work 12 steps. However, this is not an advertisement of any sort for OA. Today, at 472 pounds, I just want to share the experience of my current and future weight loss with other people. I want to get to know more people who are looking for help surviving as compulsive overeaters.

Peace & Love,
-Chinwendu aka Paul Jackson