Daily Report

B - bowl of cereal
L - 2 salmon patties with rice and baby spinach
D - 2 bowls of pasta and meatballs
dessert - sonic blast

green light day

e - 30 minutes of stairmaster @ 24 HF and 20 minutes of hoops

Daily Reports

THURS

b - 2 granola bars and milk
l - taco and some nachos
d (@ work) - turkey and stuffing, later on some 3 breadstix and a piece of pecan pie

yellow light day

e - none

FRI

b - nothing (I forgot!)
l - turkey and stuffing that I took home from work
snack - 2 cookies from whole foods
d - crab dip w/ crackers

green light day



SAT

b - 1 and 1/2 turkey and cheese sandwich at home
l -jimmy john's sandwich
later on at work - 6 breadstix and an individual spaghetti
d - 3 slices of pizza and 2 breadstix

red light day

e - 30 min of StairMaster and weight resistance @ 24 HF


SUN

b - bowl of cereal
l - 1 and 1/2 slices of pizza, a breadstick, and some turkey and stuffing
d - 1 and 1/2 bowls of white sauce pasta and some walnuts

green light day

e - not yet

Daily Report

b- 1 pbj sandwich and 1/2 a bowl of cereal
later on - 3 nutri-grain bars
l-anger whopper, rodeo cheeseburger, 1/3 king size fry
d- 2 bowls of general chicken with rice and broccoli

yellow light day

e - none

Craptacular Food Days

I just had two real shitty food days. I have purchased donuts 4 out of the last 8 days for myself. I commit to stopping that right now. I must not run, that's what I have been doing since school started. I am not feeling willing to put in the work. Realizing that now I am going upstairs to my room to do homework. A man that is not prepared can never be ready. I said that to my dad almost 12 years ago before I got on a plane and came back to Nebraska. My time to prepare is now.

Daily Report Mon & Today

MON

B - bowl of cereal
L - Smotherd Pork Chop Special at Big Mama's Kitchen
n between lunch and dinner - 2 donuts and my left over Red Lobster from Sunday
D - Plate of nachos, fritos scoops with the beans and cheese after that
later on at my work X-Mas Party - some turkey and stuffing and pineapple

Red Light Day

e - 30 minutes of StairMaster and 20 of hoops @ 24HF


TUES

B - 2 english muffins
L - 2 servings of mexican lasagna with chips and dip
later on - 2 donuts
D - Falafel sandwich and some fries

Red Light Day

e - none

Daily Report

b-skillet at VI with multigrain pancakes
d-admiral's feast @ Red Lobster
dessert - blondie brownie w/ a scoop of ice cream

yellow light day

e - 30 stairmaster, leg resistance training

Let's Make a Deal!

So I have not been posting my food on a regular basis, and I intended for that to continue to be the case. The reason for that is my food has not been a problem for me. I'm not saying that I am no longer a compulsive eater. I'm just saying that I have been taking the proper steps to make sure my compulsion is not kicking my ass everyday. However, it seems that my mommy really enjoys reading my daily reports. Well I've been trying to get my mom to just think about journaling her food; she refuses. So I made a deal with her, I continue to blog my food if she journals hers and reports it to me. It is about accountability with other people that gets us better. None of us can do it alone. Letting pride, fear, embearassment, or anything else get in the way of our recovery means we are not being true to ourselves. I want to reveal my true self; not only to me, but to the world. I want my family to happy, healthy, and progressive. I have to become the change I want to see. I will continue to do that with the guidance of the people I trust with my life everyday.

Daily Report for Fri & Sat

Friday
early in the am - 2 donuts
breakfast - bowl of cereal
lunch - double cheeseburger & fries
dinner - fire spinach with rice
dessert - sonic blast
yellow light day
exercise - none

Saturday
breakfast - bowl of cereal
lunch - 2 grilled cheese and half a bowl of tomato soup
dinner - 3 tostadas, 1 taco, about 10 frito scoops with some beans and cheese
green light day
exercise - 30 minutes of StairMaster & 20 minutes of shooting hoops @ 24HF

The Experience of Recovery

I want to get more of myself into this blog. I have been struggling to get to it as of late. This blog is a good thing for me to have. I need to express a more personal side here. I want to find more people looking for recovery in a positive way. I want people with me that want to be honest, fearless and thorough. I'm not looking to drag anyone or listen to their bullshit.

Weight Report

My monthly number is in. I currently weigh 440. That is a 5 pound loss from last month. I definitely like the feel of losing weight over the holidays. Thank Allah they are over.

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal
l - half a big burro from el aguila
d - plate of chili nachos
dessert - serving of strawberry shortcake

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal
l - a plate of bean nachos
d - 2 bowl of vegetarian fried rice

green light vegetarian day

e - 30 of walking at 24HF, 20 minutes of weight training

The Return of Paul Jackson

Wow....I feel like a foreigner on my own blog. Well things have really been moving and shaking for me literally and figuratively. My wife and I have been hitting the gym almost everyday since we've been on winter recess. We have been moving around rooms in the house, getting rid of tons of own stuff from crap to kids clothes, and we are trying to feng shui things up a bit. Life is good. I have been taking responsibility for myself and I have been making good choices. The Spirits have been guiding me, and I have been listening. Living in the light feels really good. It feels like what life is supposed to feel like.