Daily Report

b-a wesley and a yogurt
l-pb&j,a wesley, and a granola bar
d-1 and 1/2 bowls of chicken and noodles
after gym- 1 and 3/4 pb&j's
green light day
e-42 of cardio at 24

Daily Report for Yesterday

b-bowl of cereal
l-1 and 1/2 cheeseburgers, gyro, and a "wesley"
d-6 inch pizza, 4 cheesesticks
later-a "wesley"
yellow light day
e-45 min of cardio at 24, WR, & BB

Daily Report

b-slice of pizza and a couple nacho chips
l-5 meatballs and 2 servings of roasted veggies
d-2 slices of pizza, 1 and 1/2 breadsticks
after gym-bowl of cereal
green light day
e-20 min of ELL, 10 min of SM, 15 of WR, 100 crunches

Patience

I was able to have a weekend with My Breezy Yo! which was really great. However, when my children returned I realized that I have no patience for them. I have been really crabby towards them and not very nurturing lately. Tomorrow, I want to give them a really good morning to start their day and my day. I will have their clothes ready when they get up. And I will give them extra time at breakfast to goof off. They will love that. I think I will too.

Daily Report for Yesterday and Today

24 Jan 2009
b-none
l-2 "wesleys," 2 cheeseburger, 1 chicken sandwich, and baked beans
d-skillet at VI, half of my pancakes
later on-another "wesley"
red light day

25 Jan 2009
b-rice, beans w/ sausage
l-side salad, fries, and some gyro meat
later on-1 pb&j
d-2 boca burgers and cheddar mashed potatoes
yellow light day

E-NONE either day

Daily Report

b-chicken noodles and mashed potatoes
l-gyro,hamburger and fries
d-2 servings of general chicken with broccoli
yellow light day
e-none

Daily Report

b-2 pb&j's
l-2 slices of pizza and a lasagna
in between-7 pieces of candy
d-2 servings of chinese food
yellow light day
e-none

Daily Report

b-2 pb&j's
l-1 and 1/2 slices of pizza, ind pasta, and breadstick
d-3 chicken thighs, 2 servings of mashed potatoes, and 2 servings of carrots
yellow light day
e-45 minute walk

Daily Report for Yesterday

b-2 pb&j's
b4 lunch-2 cheeseburgers from bk
l- 1/2 of my spaghetti and meatballs, a salad and bread
d- 1/2 of my s and mb and a 6 inch pizza from Valentino's
later on - 2 cookies and a handful of m&m's
yellow light day
e-30 min of SM, 20 min of weightlifting, 80 crunches

Daily Report

b-bowl of cereal
l-a bowl of white chili and some cornbread
later on- 2 cookies and a handful of m&m's
d-4 tacos, pintos and cheese, and a cheesy fiesta potato from TB
yellow light day
e-none

Confessions of a Cereal Compulsive Eater

I have had a couple no structure days and my food has really suffered. Also, I really did not accomplish anything these past two days. A day off is cool, but I really need to have a plan of action for every day. It doesn't have to be set in stone. However, planning my day provides me with a great deal of balance, no matter what me day brings.

My intentions for tomorrow are:
Exercise
Remove the kitchen clutter
Prepare a meal for my family
Do 2 loads of laundry

Daily Report

b-2 pb&j's
l-4 slices of pizza and a breadstick
later on - 6 cookies and a king size m&m's
d-2 grilled cheese sandwiches and a big bowl of chili
later on - an apple with some pb and a pear
yellow light day
e-none

Daily Report

b-slim fast and an apple
b4 lunch-2 molasses cookies and a 1/2 slice of pizza
l-2 french dip sandwiches
in the afternoon - 5 donut holes
d-general chicken and 3 egg rolls from Golden China
yellow light day
e-30 min of ELL, 10 min of hoops at 24 HF

Daily Report

b-bowl of WSP and a piece of cake
l-2 slices of pizza and 4 cheese breadsticks
d-2 chili dogs and plate of chili nachos
yellow light day
e-none

Weight

My monthly weigh in was yesterday. I currently weight 473, down 5 pounds from the previous weigh in.

Self Care

The three nights I have fallen asleep on the couch. That is a real crappy way for me to go to bed. Last night I even brushed my teeth as soon as I got home from work, almost anticipating I think that I would fall asleep on the couch. This streak will end today. I promise.

Daily Report for Yesterday

b-2 pb&j's
l-2 roast beef sandwich and some doritos
d- 2 slices of pizza and 3 breadsticks at work
green light day
e-4 mile of ELL, 10 minutes of WGTLIFT

Confessions of a Cereal Compulsive Eater

Late Wednesday night hype - 3 slices of pizza

Daily Report

b-2 pb&j's
l-1 and 1/2 cheeseburgers, a pickle, and some potato chips
d-5 slices of pizza
yellow light day
e-none

Daily Report

b-none
l-double cheeseburger and onion rings from VI
b4work-2 pb&j sandwiches
afterwork- 6" pizza and 3 cheesesticks
yellow light day
e-60 min of ELLI, 15 of hoops at 24HF

My Breezy YO!

I feel really stupid even blogging this, so that must mean that I need to do it. I used to think the relationship that my wife and I had before we had children was gone, but it's not. It just is not allowed to be exposed when we are at home because one or both of us are always on parent duty. I really enjoy have kid-free time with Katie. Last night, I arranged dinner for the children and Katie and I went out. It was great. We just went to California Taco's & More, then to Hy-Vee, but some simple one on one time with My Breezy Yo really does both of us good.

Daily Report for Yesterday

b-2 pb&j sandwiches
l-slice of pizza, giant breadstick, and individual pasta from work
d-2 california tacos, and some bean dip
later on-rb sandwich and a handful of doritos
yellow light day
e-none

Daily Report

b-2 slices of hamburger pizza
l-2 lasagna rollups
d-3 chicken drumsticks, rice with vegetables, and an apple
green light day
e-3 mile walk to the grocery store with My Breezy Yo!

Carbon Free Transportation

Today my wife and I walked to the supermarket because we were almost out of PB&J. Having 3 children and one on the way, it is very important to stay stocked up on the quickest and most widely accepted lunch in the house. Walking allowed Katie and I some fun time together, I really enjoyed that. I want to continue to have more walks like these. Plus, it's good for the environment and a good way for me to rebound from a tough day yesterday.

My Day in Review

I started my day off poorly by not taking the time to get a good breakfast. I then ate a really unbalanced, unsatisfying, and generally terrible lunch. My answer to that, I didn't do what I was told to by the spirits, through Girl Friday (who does answer calls on Saturdays). I went to my com to space out then went to my fridge and grabbed the quickest stuff I could nuke, then ate them. Next I'm at my sister's house shoveling in food. I set myself up for success by purchasing a couple apple for myself at dessert time. I skipped the apples entirely. I returned home and desired more food, perhaps a little more punishment would be good for me, but I finally listened to the spirits. With this post I'll will let the disappointment, questions, and experience of this day leave me, and I will try to remember what I truly want for my life tomorrow.

Confessions of a Cereal Compulsive Eater

b-none
l-10 chicken nuggets, 1 and 1/2 Chili's from Wendys
later in the afternoon-a turkeyburger and a slice of pizza
d-a big spinach salad, 3 lasagna rollups, 3 and 1/2 slices of cake, 2 scoops of ice cream
red light day
e-40 min of cardio, 20 minutes of weightlifting, and 10 of shooting the bb

Daily Report

b-2 pb&j sandwiches and milk
at work-the toppings off of 2 slices of hamburger pizza
l-Chicken Curry, 1/2 a Paratha, and 1/2 Garlic Naan
d-1 Donor Kabob, 1/2 Falafel Sand, and a few curry fries
green light day
e-65 minute carbon-free walk

My Ego

I recently went out to eat with another member of OA a couple days ago. We were talking about recovery and my recent struggles, and she asked me if I was "in relapse" and I said "no." I justified my response to her by making it explicitly clear that if I was in relapse I could and would be eating everything in sight all the time. However, during my walk this morning, the Spirits told me that if you don't call 23 pounds in two months, eating all the sugar you can handle, and removing yourself from your program of recovery relapse, then what is relapse? So, to my friend that shared that mediocre meal at LaMesa avec moi, I was definetly in relapse. My ego gets in my way all the time. I want to stay humble and be grateful for the blessings that are within my path. Not admitting that I was in relapse was a way for me to reject the feelings of shame and failure I had for not working my program.

My Next 100 pounds

So, I got my weight down to 440 lbs at my lowest point and then I started to backslide. On Oct 15, I weighed 455 and by Dec 28 I was up to 478. I have been in a rut with my physical recovery for about a year now, so I have been trying to get back to my OA basics. Three meals a day and no recreational sugar. I also have been back to exercising (about 5 day a week, instead of 2-3) and blogging as well. What is crazy to me is that during the past year I have felt this block inside of me, but I have been unwilling to deal with it. This block inside me has been the stress of having to leave school again, buying a new house, and the aftermath of buying this new house. However, I am now dealing with all of these issues now, by simply working my program of recovery. My OA programs keeps me mentally in check and I often forget how critical that is to my well being. If I eat right and exercise, I complete the maintenance tasks of my everyday life without procrastination. This is how I lost my first 100 pounds, and this is how I will lose the rest...

Intentions

I intend to hear my wife and be available for her when she needs me.
I intend to focus on reducing our family debt.
I intend to make someone I don't know laugh tomorrow.

Daily Report

b-plate of nachos
l-2 chicken sandwiches with doritos and 1/4 of a pickle
d-2 turkeyburgers w/ cheese and tomato
green light day
e-none

Intentions

I want to find a job that I enjoy doing so I can support my family if my wife wants does not return to work after having the baby.

I want to shout out "THANK YOU!" to the guy that flipped me off in traffic today. I got a really good laugh out of that.

I want my new baby to be healthy and happy.

Antonett

My sister was arrested for shoplifting. I'm not surprised, but I'm very grateful today that I made her kids my kids. Today my daughter Tanea said, "Daddy why is Mama Toni in jail?" I told her why and Tanea said, "I don't remember her." I was strangely sad. I don't really know why. I just want my sister to get better. I love you, Toni.

Daily Report

b-two soft tacos at my mama's house
l-combination plate from LaMesa
before dinner- a burrito and cheesy potatoes from taco bell
d-two chicken sandwiches and half a pickle
green light day
e-20 min of ST, 15 min of ELL, 20 of weights

Daily Report

b-plate of nachos
l-1 and 1/2 bowls of cereal, PB&J sandwich
d-6" pizza, 2 giant cheese breadsticks
yellow light day
e-1 hour walk