The Life & Recovery of Paul Jackson: Weight

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Weight

I stepped on the scale for the first time since the 15th of June of Sunday. My current weight is 458 pounds. I'm back on the horse now, and I can't wait to see where I go.

1 comment:

Light Language said...: Good to hear from you again. Thanks for the honesty on the scale.; September 16, 2008 at 4:18 PM

Clarity

I never understood football players in the big game praying. Praying for something specific to happen always seemed a bit unpure to me. I used to pray for the ability to wake up the next morning. However, I'd never put any effort into dismantling my fears of obesity, chest pains, and my impending death. I wound rather lay and pray to a God I wasn't all faithful in rather than get myself active in the spirit. Clarity is what I found in OA. The mental clarity I needed to change myself. For over twenty years I let food get in the way of what I needed to see, hear, feel, and live. The world no longer seems so daunting to me. I can now look forward to the struggles of life as learning experiences. Realizing now that facing my life won't kill me.