An Unrandom Journal Entry - Friday Night 12 June 09

The boundaries around me are limitless. However, I understand the importance of them today. Just yesterday I had the opportunity to cross some lines that I don't need to be crossing, the next thing I know I'm getting a phone call. The phone call reminded me of a task I had previously committed to. After the task was completed I returned to my house. As I lay on my couch in dismay over the poor free throw shooting of Dwight Howard in the NBA Finals, I thought to myself, "damn it feels good to be a home." Home is my safest place. The boundary of my house includes the love of my wife and children. With my family is the most important place for me to be. The love inside my house makes the rest of my life possible. Perhaps there are times when I get bored within that boundary, but it is up to me to look for safe excitement in other places. I can't just go gallavanting off without thinking.
I'm starting to get it, but I'm still not sure if it will work. Some of the things we can think are keeping us alive could be killing our spirit. What do we do if we don't know how to analyze the effects of influences inside our lives. Abstaining from those things can give us more clarity because it allows us to remove ourselves from the influence of our own thinking. All this mind chatter can be a huge pain, I just want to live the right way. If that means I have to let everything I think I want go, then I will do that. There is too much at steak(lol) for me to play foolish games.

Do It For Mabel!!!

There is a woman name Mabel that has had a profound effect on the way I feel about my physical recovery. As I have become more complacent in the past 8-9 months I have lost my connection to Mabel. I want that back. So, I am focusing more attention to my physical recovery. Thanks Mabel

Router Maintenance

I want to work with routers. I love networking. I want a career that I love. Spirits when you are ready I am willing. Until then, I will do what is in front of me for today.

Exercise

I committed to texting in my exercise at least 4 times this week. So, that means I have to do it.

Food Issues

I have a problem with eating too much food at dinner.
I have the same problem with cookies that I have with donuts.

I have a workable solution to both of these problems if I'm truly ready to let go.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to accept the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

I intend to do what's in front of me, and nothing more for tomorrow.

Confessions of a Cereal Compulsive Eater

I have had a couple no structure days and my food has really suffered. Also, I really did not accomplish anything these past two days. A day off is cool, but I really need to have a plan of action for every day. It doesn't have to be set in stone. However, planning my day provides me with a great deal of balance, no matter what me day brings.

My intentions for tomorrow are:
Exercise
Remove the kitchen clutter
Prepare a meal for my family
Do 2 loads of laundry

Intentions

I intend to hear my wife and be available for her when she needs me.
I intend to focus on reducing our family debt.
I intend to make someone I don't know laugh tomorrow.

Intentions

I want to find a job that I enjoy doing so I can support my family if my wife wants does not return to work after having the baby.

I want to shout out "THANK YOU!" to the guy that flipped me off in traffic today. I got a really good laugh out of that.

I want my new baby to be healthy and happy.

A wacky day...

I worked today, which is usually for me on a Tuesday. My intention was to go in and help on a busy day. I believe I accomplished that task, so for that I will be grateful. I want more work that generates money. I would love for it to not come from delivering pizzas. I intend to stay alerts for opportunities in which I can make money in entrepreneurial ways. I hope to find a new way to live by doing so.