Daily Report

b - 1 & 1/2 pb&j
l - 1 plate of food (some dressing, mini-taco, veggie pockets, & some chicken nuggets)
d - runza and onion rings

Yellow Light Day

e - none

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal
l - falafel w/ fries
d - 1 and 1/2 soup with tomato bread
later on - king size snickers

Yellow Light Day

e - none

Daily Report

b- bowl of cereal
l - 3 slices of pizza, w/ some leftover veggie chili w/ fritos
d- 2 helping of turkey and 2 helpings of stuffing
later on - 2 hand fulls of peanut m&m's

Yellow Light Day

e - 2.0 miles at Norris Middle School track, 5 minutes of running bleachers

Daily Report for Yesterday

b - 3 fried eggs w/ cheese and salsa and 2 slices of toast
l - 2 triple cheeseburger from BK
d - 2 grilled cheese sandwiches and tomato soup for dipping
3 hand fulls of peanut m&m's

Yellow Light Day

e - none

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal
l - 2 open-face egg salad sandwiches and some cheese nips
snack - 1/2 an egg salad sandwich and 4 snackwell cookies
d - 2 chili dogs, 1 hot dog, and a can of corn

green light day

Today I'm grateful for wanting what I have.

e - 50 minutes of walking @ 24HF

Daily Report

b - 2 open-face egg salad sandwiches and some crackers
l - personal pizza and 1/2 an individual spaghetti w/ meatsauce
d - 3 slices of pizza and a breadstick

Green Light Day

Today I'm grateful for pull-ups.

e - 30 minutes of stairmaster and 10 minutes of hoops @ 24

Daily Report

b - cheese, crackers, pickles, & summer sausage
l - some grapes and 2 bites of strawberry yogurt
d - some more cheese, crackers, summer sausage, but also with eggsalad and bread
later on - sonic blast
even later on - half a my sister's sonic blast

Red Light Day

Today I'm grateful for My Breezy YO!'s touch on my skin.

e - 45 minutes of treadmill, and 10 minutes of shooting hoops and 24

Daily Report

B - bowl of cereal
Thanksgiving Dinner - 2 plates of food, 1/2 slice of pumpkin pie, 1/2 slice of cherry pie, 2 slices of apple pie

Yellow Light Day

Today I'm grateful for an invitation to come and spend the holiday with people that I love.

e - 30 minutes of StairMaster, 25 minutes of shooting hoops

Daily Report

b - can of slim fast
l - soft taco and a grilled stuft burrito from Taco Bell
d - 4 slice of pizza and 2 breadsticks

Green Light Day

I'm grateful today that I am willing to "do the work" of recovery.

e - 30 stairmaster, 15 treadmill @ 3.8mph and 30 shooting hoops @ 24HF

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal
l - 3 slices of pizza and 2 breadstix
d - 1 and 1/2 bowl of marinara spaghetti and a can corn
dessert - oreo sonic blast

yellow light day

Today I'm glad all the time is not mealtime.

e - 30 minutes of stairmaster, 15 treadmill @ 4.0, and 10 minutes of shooting hoops at 24HF

Weight Report

2 days ago at 24HF I weighed myself for the month. I'm at 450, down 2 lbs from last month. I have been lackadaisical with my food and my exercise over the past month. It's time to get back into a more normal stride and start listening to my body

Daily Report

B - 3 slices of thin crust pizza and 2 breadstix
L - 1 plate at my daughters pre-school thanksgiving dinner
S - 5 or 6 fritos with hummus, and a cheese stick
D - lasagna and a cesar salad

Today I'm grateful I'm outta school for a whole week!

E - 43 minutes walking at 4.0 mph and 15 minutes of shooting hoops @ 24HF

Daily Report

B - bowl of cereal
L - 2 breadstix and bean burrito
D - plate of veggie chili nachos

Today I'm grateful that I hear my body.

E - 30 minutes of treadmill and 20 of shooting hoops at 24HF

Daily Report

b - bowl of cereal
l - falafel sandwich and some fries
d - 3 slices of pizza and 2 breadstix

Green Light Day

Today I'm grateful for Bob Marley

e - 30 minutes of StairMaster and 20 minutes of shooting hoops @ 24 HF.

Late Daily Reports

Thursday, November 15, 2007

b - bowl of cereal
l - 2 open face turkey sandwiches
d - 2 slices of pizza, 2 breadstick, half of a spaghetti

Green Light Day

E - none

Friday, November 16, 2007

b - bowl of cereal
l - half a Frescetta Pizza with garlic hummus
d - 1 and 1/2 Falafal Sandwiches w/ a few fries and some chips and hummus
later on - Reese's Sonic Blast

Yellow Light Day

E - None

Good-bye Mr. King Size

When I came into OA I cut my food by 50%. That was easy because I made some rules that I was willing to live by. Now it is time for me to rewrite those rules again. For about 4 months now my mind has been fighting with my stomach about food. I will be in the act of eating something and my body will tell my I have had enough. However, my mind keeps telling me to keep eating. I don't want to do that anymore. Today I'm giving up eating more food than I need.

My entire life I have lived for big meals. I'm not talking about just during the holiday season or a birthday celebration or something like that. I'm talking about everyday breakfast, lunch and dinner. I wanted big meals all the time. I was at a buffet if and only I was experiencing life to the fullest. That's sounds like a weird statement I know, but the only time I truly remember uncontrollable bliss is when I was in the presence of more food than I could handle. Even though I have stopped eating to that level of excess, I have still been holding on to that bliss from compulsive eating.

For today, I realize that I need to release more of my food. I have been losing weight at a pace of about 8 lbs a month since a joined 24 Hour Fitness in May. I know that I must be willing to do this for continuation of my recovery to keep happening. I want to eat like a normal person, that doesn't mean I will think like a normal person does about food. I'm ok with that. I have tools today to help deal with my disease of compulsive eating. Knowing that, I must now say my good-byes to eating more food than I need to live.

I have a responsibility to love and care for myself, excess food takes away from that.

Love is not large quantities of food.

Being overweight hides who I really am.

I don't want to be fat anymore.

Less food equals a smaller me, and a smaller me can live for a long time.

I want to be alive when my kids have kids.

Excess food equals death for me.

Eating right keeps my spirit alert, aware and ready for action.

I deserve the next level of life, to get there I'm letting go of this excess food.

Normal exists for a reason, I want to experience it.

Good-bye Mr. King-Size, you are dismissed.

Daily Report for Yesterday

b - bowl of cereal w/ milk
l - falafel sandwich w/ curry fries
snack - king size snickers
d - 4 pieces of chicken, serving of mashed potatoes and a biscuit from Popeye's
after the gym - king size m&m's

red light day

Today I'm grateful for my struggles.

e - 1 hour personal training appointment at 24hf

I'm exicited....

I'm excited to get today over with. I have a long school day, errands to run, personal trainer appointment at 9pm at 24HF, and an OA meeting at 7:30 today. Despite my crying, I'm excited to have this full life. I'm grateful for this life, I love it.

Daily Report for Yesterday

B - Bowl of cereal w/ milk
L - 2 Chicken Sandwiches, 1/2 PB&J
D - Gyro & Fries
Later On - Slice of Pie

Today I grateful that I have friends.

E - 30 of StairMaster @ 24 Hour Fitness, and 20 minutes of shooting hoops.

Daily Report for Yesterday

B - Bowl of cereal w/ milk
L - Cheesy Beefy Melt, 7 Layer Burrito and Rice from TB
Snack - Snickers Bar
D - 2 bowls of soup, leg, 2 thighs off a rotisserie chicken, and an apple

Today I'm grateful I have a plan

E - None