Food for Yesterday & Today

Sat - 9/29/7
Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/ milk
Lunch - 1.5 cups of Spinach Noodles and 2 slices of Bacon Cheeseburger pizza
Dinner - Medium Potato Ole, Steak and Rice burrito, Taco Bravo, & some leftover Super Potato Oles, about 5 bites
Yellow Light Day

Sun - 9/30/07
Breakfast - 3 fried eggs, 2 Peanut Butter and Banana Pancakes w/ milk
Lunch - 1 biscuit, 5 pieces of chicken, & a large cajun rice from Popeye's
Dinner - 1 cup of saffron rice, w/ raw veggies (baby spinach, onions, bell pepper, tomatoes, jalapenos)
Dessert - 3 Vegan Choc Chip cookies and 3 scoops of ice cream
Yellow Light Day

Food

Breakfast - bowl of cereal w/milk & 3/4 PBJ
Lunch - 2 Boca Burger whole wheat tortilla wraps
Snack - pudding cup
Dinner - 1 & 1/2 bowls of while chili, 3 slices of bread
Dessert :-) 3 cookies from Wild Oats

Yellow Light Day

Food for Yesterday

Breakfast - Leftover General Chicken w/ rice
Lunch - Blueberry yogurt & apple nutra grain bar
Supper - Two open face boca burgers topped w/ chedder, tomato, onion, and baby spinach w/ a side of steamed carrots

Green Light Day!!!!!

Go Me!!!

Today I got out of math 20 minutes early. So instead of going to a computer and browsing the internet. I decided to take a power walk around campus. I could really get used to this new thinking.

Food

Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/milk and slice of PB Bread
Lunch - 2 Boca Burgers w/ cheese, baby spinach and hummus, and a can of corn
Dinner - 1/2 my general chicken, 2 egg rolls, 3 crab ran goon, and 3 chicken wings

Yellow Light Day

Food

Break fast :-0 Bowl of cereal w/ milk, & slice of bread w/ peanut butter
Lunch - 2 slices of pizza and 4.5 breadsticks
Snack - 2 little pastries type things (idk what they are called, about 2x2 inches each)
Dinner - 2 slice of pizza and a can of corn

Green Light Day

Food

Breakfast - 2 eggs w/ shredded cheese and 2 slices of whole wheat toast
Lunch - 6-inch Chicken Bacon Ranch, 4 oz yogurt, and some apple slices
Snack - PB&J Sandwich and Pudding Cup
Dinner - 5 pieces of chicken, 1 serving of mashed potatoes, 4 pickled jalapenos, 2 biscuits, and 1 serving of cherry cobbler

Red Light Day

Out to Lunch

Today I'm going out to lunch with my sister and brother-in-law. We're going to Subway. This is not a big deal, but what I want to do is. I have never just ordered a 6-inch sub in my life. Today I am committing myself to only 6-inches of sandwich. Posting my thoughts is making me accountable for my actions in a whole new way. I don't want to post my food later and feel failure. So, committing to something new on my blog keeps me on my toes. Slacking is my default, so I need to set boundaries that will let me grow into a less dysfunctional person.

Today I will be honest and fearless,
-Paul Jackson

Thinking Update

I can do anything! However, I forget that constantly. I know that being free from compulsive eating today lets me live my life. But, I'm still learning what living life means. I'm taking an intro to abstract math class right now. I have a take home test due at 1pm today. I have known about this test for five days, but I refused to look at it. I don't want to be baffled by the questions and feel stupid. So, I just live in fear of taking the test. When I finally sit down Sunday night and do the fucking thing, it only took me about 90 minutes. It was challenging, I enjoyed that. Why did I not do it sooner? Next time I will do it sooner. I will not let my fears get in the way of my re-covery. My life depends on me. After I finished that test I went downstairs and celebrated with another pudding cup for the day and a Fiber One Bar. Now this is far from a binge, but I must find ways of rewarding myself that do not involve food. Today I see progress not perfection, and that's all I can ask for.

Food for Yesterday

Breakfast - Leftover Pasta from Cheesecake Factory and my slice of Carrot Cake Cheesecake (what a way 2 start the day)
Lunch - 2 Tuna Salad Sandwiches topped with mojack, baby spinach and tomato on wheat kaiser buns
Snack - 1 pudding cup and shared nacho's with my wife @ the bowling
Dinner - 1.5 cups of Pasta Roni
Later on - 1 pudding cup and a Fiber One bar

A Year of Growing

Today has been a day of reflection for me. I can truly look back over the past year and see tremendous growth in every aspect of my life. Somehow the birth of Emenike bonded our family in a unimaginable way. As the only biological child of my wife and I, he seems to belong not only to us, but to his two adopted sisters. Emenike is the spiritual glue of my family. His presence has created a peace inside me that allows me to "take things easy," which is the definition of his name.

Taking things easy has allowed me to continue to move forward in my own spiritual, mental, and physical recovery from compulsive overeating. Starting to learn about letting go of things out of my control has made me more useful to all other people that I encounter. The Spirits guide in all aspects of my life when I make myself available to their knowledge. Today I'm thinking with my recovery voice, and that feels amazing.

Amazing also best describes the growth that is happened in my marriage over the past 12 months. Everyday Katie's and my relationship grows more nourishing. Through the function and the dysfunction this woman and I are committed to make one another and ourselves better people. The Spirits have placed me in an environment of love and recovery; I continue to be thankful and careful with this gift.

My Monkeys keep my on my toes. They provide me lessons on life, love, responsibility and trust daily. Genevieve, Tanea, & Emenike have changed me forever. They have taught me how to "soak up the sun." I am humbled to be their father.

Life is good, if you live it,
-Chinwendu

Food

Breakfast - 1 Granola Bar and 1 Nutra Grain Bar
Lunch - 1 Rice, 2 Baja Bean Chalupa, & 1 Cheesy Beefy Melt from Taco Bell
Alex's Celebration - 2 pieces of Ice Cream Cake
Dinner - 2/3 Nacho Appetizer, 1/4 Cajun Jambalaya Pasta from The Cheesecake Factory

Emenike's 1st Birthday

LOL! This little boy fell asleep during after devouring as much of his first birthday cake as he could. I love my little boy. I'm proud to be his Daddy.

Exercise It!

Today I walked 1.9 miles on the Keystone Trail with the family.

Exercise and Weight Report

As of 9.21.7 I currently weight 462 pounds, down from 472 last month.

9.22.7
Walk w/ Momz and Babies @ Keystone Trail 2.2 miles

9.21.7
20 minutes of Stairmaster & 10 minutes of B-ball @ 24 Fitness

Food for Yesterday & Today

Thursday - 9.21.7
Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/ milk
Lunch - Two Cheeseburgers w/ carrots and broccoli
Dinner - 3/4 Crispy Orange Chicken Bowl from Applebee's
Later on - Chicken Thigh Sandwich
Drinks - Can of Barq's & Vanilla Coke Zero, water the rest of the day
Yellow Light Day

Friday - 9.22.7
Breakfast - Bowl of Cereal w/ milk
Lunch - Saffron Rice w/ SautÉed Chicken and Veggies
Dinner - 4/5 El Kitchen Sinko Fernacho's
Drinks - Water all day
Green Light Day

Food

I'm actually posting my food the day I ate it. What took me so long?

Breakfast - Bowl of cereal w/ milk
Lunch - Two Cheeseburgers, raw carrots and brocolli w/ ranch dip
Snack - Nutra-grain bar
Dinner - Five slices of Pizza Hut pizza
Drinks - Can of Coke Zero, water the rest of the day

Yellow Light Day

Yesterday's Food

Breakfast - None
Lunch - A Cheeseburger, chicken thigh, 1.5 cups of potato salad, and 1 oatmeal raisin bar.
Snack - Turkey Cheese w/ cheese
Dinner - Saffron rice w/ sautéed chicken and vegetables
Later on - 3 oatmeal raisin bars

Yellow Light Day

Manic Monday

Monday was by far the worst day I've had with food since I have been in OA. I disregarded all my boundaries. I ignored all the rules that make me feel safe and confident in my recovery. On Monday I fell early in the day and didn't get up until the mid-evening. I spent about 12 hours of the day feeling sorry for myself, bitter because I don't have the control I once had now being a stay-at-home parent. I have to go to school and run my kids back and forth all over the place on Mondays and Wednesdays. I don't want to clean my house, I don't want all these tasks to be so fucking difficult, but life is for learning. So today accept my responsibilities and master them so that life will reward me with new challenges. When things are difficult, I can face them, or I can eat. On Manic Monday I ate, that is old thinking. Today I'm back on track continuing on the journey of updating my thinking.

Food from Monday

To start - 5 oatmeal raisin bars, 2 cups of grapes.
Lunch - Feta Cheeseburger, 3 boneless skinless chicken thighs, 2 cups of potato salad, 2 oatmeal raisin bars.
Later on - 5 oatmeal raisin bars w/ milk
Dinner - 3 hot dogs on two hot dog buns, 2 chicken thighs, 2 cups of potato salad, a handful of grapes, about 2 cups of raw broccoli and carrot w/ bleu cheese dip
An hour after supper - 2 oatmeal raisin bars

Food for Yesterday & Today

Sat (9-15-7)
Breakfast - Fiber One Bar and a bowl of cereal w/milk.
While I was @ work -2 Slices of pizza, 3 zzagos, 1/2 cup of diced ham
Dinner - Dozen Chicken Wings and 2 Slices of Pizza
Drinks - Water, 32 ounces of Diet Pepsi while I was at work

Yellow Light Day

Sun (9-16-7)
Breakfast - None
Lunch - 2 slices of pizza and a breadstick
Dinner- 5 boneless skinless chicken theighs, 1 cup of potato salad, 2 slices of cake, 1 feta cheeseburger, and some other stuff too. I can remember everything I ate. :-( I need to update my BBQ thinking.

Red Light Day